THE EVALUATION

YEAR ELEVEN WITH THE GOAL OF HEAVEN

CAN YOU IMAGINE? CAN YOU FATHOM? A DIFFERENT WAY OF LIFE? LIVING THAT IS NOT INCLUSIVE OF STRIFE OR TRIFE? I CAN. I HAVE, I WILL, AND YET AND STILL, I AM SO GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL TO ALLAH(SWT) ALONE ( AL-AHAD) WITH NO PARTNERS FOR RECEIVING GUIDANCE TO ISLAM 11 YEARS AGO. YOU CAN AND WE CAN REALIZE AND ACTUALIZE THIS WAY OF LIFE IF WE TRULY BELIEVE AND SEEK TO ACHIEVE SOMETHING DIFFERENT. SOMETHING THAT CAN IMPROVE US AND WILL GIVE US A PURPOSE. 

SO, TODAY AS I THINK BACKWARD AND MOVE FORWARD IN THE MOST WHOLESOME WAY, I THINK ABOUT MY SOUL. THE SOUL. I THINK ABOUT THE WORD POWER AND ITS OPPOSITE, HOWEVER WE DEFINE IT TO BE. YOU DEFINE IT TO BE. I THINK ABOUT SURVIVAL AND REVIVAL WITH THEIR OPPOSITES BEING NEAR IF WE CHOOSE TO ALLOW FEAR TO LEAD THE WAY. PUTTING ALL OF THESE THOUGHTS TOGETHER I THINK ABOUT WHERE I AM TODAY, WHERE I WAS AND WHERE I WANT TO BE. YOU SEE, WE LEARN IN ISLAM AND IN GENERAL THAT EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE IS A TEST. PERSPECTIVE, REFLECTIVE AND OBJECTIVE. A TEST, A REST. A LESSON, A BLESSING.

ISLAM REMAINS THE MOST IMPORTANT ASPECT OF MY LIFE AND NAVIGATES MY MEANING AND PURPOSE AS I CONTINUE WITH THE MENU OF CHOICES. WE ALL HAVE CHOICES, REGARDLESS OF THE VOICES THAT WE READ AND HEAR THAT TRY TO DISTRACT US OR SUBTRACT US. THERE ARE SO MANY TOPICS TO DISCUSS TODAY AND EVERYDAY. BUT, IT IS IMPORTANT TO NOT BECOME CAUGHT UP IN WORDS THAT CAN CONFUSE OUR MINDS, OUR JOURNEYS. MOST IMPORTANTLY, I THINK ABOUT MY SOUL AND HOW BLESSED AND IMPRESSED I AM WITH THE LIVELIHOOD THAT ISLAM HAS PROVIDED TO MY SOUL. THE HOLE IN MY SOUL THAT IS NOW WHOLE BECAUSE OF ISLAM. THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE AND MY POINT IS NOT TO PERSUADE OR DISSUADE ANY PERSON FROM WHO THEY CHOOSE TO BE, BECOME, REMAIN, SUSTAIN AND WHAT THEY SHOULD CHOOSE TO OBTAIN. THIS IS THE BEAUTY OF ISLAM AND TAUGHT TO US IN THE HOLY QUR'AN IN CHAPTER 109, THAT THERE IS FREEDOM OF WORSHIP AS WE CHOOSE IT TO BE.

AS I THINK ABOUT THIS TODAY. I FEEL LESS STRESS AND NO DURESS AS I CONTINUE TO BE SO THANKFUL TO ALLAH(SWT) FOR MY CHOICE TO CONTINUE ON MY PATH, THE STRAIGHT PATH TOWARD ALLAH(SWT). AS A MUSLIM DURING THESE ELEVEN YEARS, THE NUMBERS ENUMERATE AS 11 ARE JUST THAT, NUMBERS IN MY LIFE; AS I GROW CLOSER AND NEARER TO MY FIRST LOVE ALLAH(SWT) (AL-WADUD). ALLAH(SWT) SAVED MY SOUL AND NOW I AM SOULFUL AND SO FULL OF LOVE FOR ALLAH(SWT). ALLAH(SWT) HAS SHOWN ME THE LIGHT (AN- NUR) AND CONTINUES TO GUIDE ME ALONG THE PATH OF ENLIGHTENMENT. BUT I FEEL NO ENTITLEMENT, AS PRIDE AND ARROGANCE FOR THE GIFTS GIVEN TO US (CONVERTS TO ISLAM) FROM ALLAH(SWT) SHOULD BE HUMBLY RECEIVED WHILE ALWAYS PLACING ALLAH(SWT) FIRST (AL AWWAL). 

AS I CONTINUE TO THINK ABOUT MY DECISION 11 YEARS AGO TO BECOME A MUSLIM AND WORSHIP ALLAH(SWT) ALONE WITH NO PARTNERS; I ALSO THINK ABOUT IMPERFECTION AND THE SELECTION THAT ALLAH(SWT) HAS PROVIDED TO US, CONVERTS; WHICH CAN BE THE REALITY FOR ANY PERSON WHO CHOOSES TO TRULY BECOME A MUSLIM. TRULY AND AUTHENTICALLY DEEP WITHIN THE DEPTHS OF THEIR HEART. ALLAH(SWT) READS OUR HEARTS AND IS SO FORGIVING AND GIVING. (AR RAHMAN, AR RAHIM). ALLAH(SWT) KNOWS THAT WE WILL MAKE MISTAKES WITH THE GOALS OF LEARNING AND YEARNING FOR A LIFE WITH THE LEAST AMOUNT OF MISTAKES POSSIBLE. SINNERS JUDGING SINNERS. ARROGANCE AND SELF PRIDE CAN LEAD TO DIVIDE; AND LEAD EACH OF US TOWARD THE PATH OF BANISHMENT. THIS IS TOLD TO US WITHIN THE HISTORIES IN HUMANITY; THAT CAUSED THE FALLS. BRAWLS, STALLS AND MORE FALLS. THE GREAT NEWS IS THAT ALLAH(SWT) IS MERFICUL AND ACCEPTS REPENTANCE ONCE WE ACKNOWLEDGE OUR ACTIONS WITH ACCOUNTABILITY AND RESPONSIBILITY. CAN EVERYONE DO THIS? IMPROVE THIS? WE WILL SEE. 

I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THE ABILITY TO WRITE AND CONTINUE TO RECITE THE VERSES IN THE HOLY QUR'AN; THAT CONSISTENTLY AND RELEVANTLY PROVIDE ME, YOU, US AND WE AND ANY ONE WHO CHOOSES TO GAIN CLOSENESS TO ALLAH(SWT); THE ABILITY TO LEARN ABOUT SELF IMPROVEMENT WITHIN THE FRAME AND LENS OF ISLAM. ISLAM IS SO MUCH MORE THAN A RELIGION. I HOPE THAT PEOPLE TRULY SEE THIS BY STUDYING MULTIPLE SOURCES OF INFORMATION AND ALSO LISTENING TO OTHER STORIES OF DIVERSE PEOPLE WHO BECAME MUSLIMS. 

I AM SO FULL WITH CONTINUAL LOVE FOR ALLAH(SWT). MY SOUL IS FULL, SOULFUL, WITH LIGHT AND MERCY; AND GRATITUDE BEING THE LATITUDE FOR A MEANINGFUL AND PURPOSEFUL LIFE. THIS PROVIDES ME WITH THE PRESCRIPTION TO MOVE THROUGH EACH DAY, REGARDLESS OF WHAT IS HAPPENING OR NOT HAPPENING; WITH AN APPRECIATION THAT IT IS THE WILL OF ALLAH(SWT). ALLAH(SWT) IS IN COMPLETE CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING; OUR DESTINY.

SINCERELY AND AUTHENTICALLY; WITH THE BEST REGARDS AND WELL WISHES FOR GUIDANCE, LOVE, LIGHT AND HOPE TO EVERYONE AROUND THE WORLD,

JENNIFER MARIE LEE (ZEYNAB)

4-16-20

 

 

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